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moany mouse

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Sunday, 11 December 2016

We Were On A Break

TW: Depression/anxiety

I need more time. My heart is sad that I've taken a step back from blogging and the blogging community however my mental health has been (& still is) challenging me more than ever. 

The good news it that I've started counselling so I'm hopeful that I'll be out of the deepest part of this ditch soon. 

I'm still tweeting from time to time so you can catch me there. Also, I checked my page views and was a bit shocked at the stats - thanks for still swinging by to check in. :)

Sunday, 16 October 2016


If you follow me over on Twitter you may have heard this already but I've inadvertently fallen into a little blogging break. 

It's not you, it's me.

I have some time off work coming up and hope to spend some of that time re-jigging & hopefully, HOPEFULLY, getting back into the swing of things. 

I'll still be popping online from time to time to keep up with you all. See you soon. :)

Sunday, 11 September 2016

Six Good Things

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As I'm typing this, it's Sunday evening and I've just finished meal prep for work tomorrow. It's my first day back after two weeks off and I am pretty heartbroken about it! In the past two weeks the mornings and nights have gotten much darker and with me doing compressed shifts (12 hour days) I'm expecting to see very little sunlight until at least Thursday. 

This does mean that we're edging closer to Halloween though. I wonder if I can make it to October before I whip out Hocus Pocus...

1. Time off work

Being able to wake up naturally > getting woken up at 5:45am by a stinkin' alarm. When I'm off work I sleep healthier, exercise more and am generally in a happier state of mind. A whole different person. One day I'll be able to work from home for myself, I just need to figure out how. 

2. Horror movies

This was my Friday. Lights out, doors locked, curtains shut, thinking twice about going to pee alone. Horror movies are definitely my favourite kind but I'm finding it hard to find good ones that I haven't seen before so any recommendations are welcome! 

3. Girl time

Another bonus of being off work meant I was able to spend an evening in Glasgow with my two sisters & two cousins. We went to Steak and Cherry on Sauchiehall Street for dinner and cocktails and had planned to move on afterwards, however my little sister felt a bit fainty so we all jumped in a taxi and took her home, and spent the rest of the evening watching cartoons (she's an animator - cartoons galore in her flat) until our late train home. My heart felt a bit full afterwards. <3

4. Pokemon Go!

STILL. I find this game really therapeutic - it totally clears my mind of everything else going on and keeps my focus on something I enjoy. Plus, they've made the Pokemon even cuter than in the tv shows somehow?!?! I'm also loving the Trainer Tips YouTube channel, definitely check it out if you are playing the game and haven't already done so. Although be prepared for Pokemon envy. And food envy.

5. The Office box set

We all have a movie or show that is just a total comfort blanket don't we? For me it's The Office (US version). I picked it up a month or so ago from HMV for £30 however have just noticed it's down to £27 on Amazon! Michael Scott is my favourite character of all time. Followed closely by Prison Mike. The programme is golden. 

6. Games night

As you may have seen in this tweet, we exercised our rights as adults and moved the living room around to have a games night. And by games night I mean I forced gently encouraged my boyfriend to get involved in Sims 4. See - being an adult isn't all bills and trying to carry four shopping bags at once. 

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How has your week been?

More specifically, I'm interested to know:
What's been your favourite catch in Pokemon Go?
If you play the Sims, what do you do to keep it from getting boring? I think I'm cheating too much and it's making me lose interest. 
And finally, what is your go to movie/tv programme to have on for a little comfort in the background?

Tuesday, 6 September 2016

A Mouse in Amsterdam

Two weeks before my boyfriend & I's annual leave from work we decided to book a last minute trip to Amsterdam. Neither of us had been before and due to me being a total homebody, as well as having the whole cat thing going on, going away for a week or two was kinda out of the question. A city break relatively close to home felt like the perfect option.

We were there for three days/two nights which felt like the right amount of time to tick off the things we wanted to do. Thanks to my boyfriend's travels for work, he had built up some Club Carlson hotel points so we were able to stay in the Park Plaza Victoria Amsterdam right in the heart of the city centre for a grand total of £0! Not too shabby for Rachel. 


Tourist Time!

My absolute favourite part of the trip was our visit to the Anne Frank Museum. Stop calling me a party princess please, I know it. I booked tickets online pretty much right after I'd booked the flights so rather than having to wait in the queue that circled the building we got to shimmy on in. Seeing the diary and the bookcase irl gave me goosebumps. There was also an American dad talking his kids through the museum scenes in The Fault in Our Stars, much to their annoyance and embarrassment. Wonderful stuff. 

We also: played the part of tourists to the max and got involved in some canal boat tour action / visited Vondelpark - probably the most chilled out park in the history of the world / had a *cough* mature visit to the sex mueseum / had a wonder through the red light district. 


If possible, visit through the week. Saturday night in the centre of Amsterdam is panic attack central. Nothing like screaming "I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW" in your boyfriend's ear to add a little romantic touch to your trip. 

Buy your train tickets before you try to get on the train. Luckily I'd been told to do this before we went however we saw people miss their train because they hadn't done so! 

Take comfy trainers.  I feel like Amsterdam really gets me. A whole city with like zero hills to have to walk up. Amazing. However my flats still kicked me in and I ended up having to go over and above our spending money to buy a new pair of trainers to save my soles. Also, because I had my fuck-it-I'm-on-holiday head on, I went for holographic Adidas Superstars because I am a magpie and couldn't resist the shiny details. In my defence though I fit into child sizes so didn't have to pay for adult sizes. 

Don't mess with the cyclists. I can still hear bike bells pinging in my ears. Legit if you step out onto the road when there isn't a green man a cyclist will appear as if from nowhere and you'll be lucky to keep your toes. Respect them like you would the sea. You have been warned. 

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Have you ever been to Amsterdam?
I think for me, until I find myself in a better place with my anxiety, it will be UK breaks for the next wee while at least. 
If you have any recommendations I'd love to hear them! 

Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Introducing Cats: Cat Owners, I Need Your Help!

I got another cat. You may recall. I didn't actually seek out another cat, my boyfriend's sister has moved abroad and I'm too soft to say no. 

Why would I say no?! Well, I already have two cats and I was convinced that they wouldn't get along. Turns out I was right. So I'm here to ask for any help/advice/tips that you might be able to share with me. 

Before we get started and I fill you in with the details, let me introduce you to my three ANGELS. 

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Introducing cats

Cleo, male, 9. 
He really likes being noisy, bed time and chasing me around the house, which is terrifying because he's so huge. He's more like a border collie than a cat. 
Cleo really doesn't like closed doors. 
We adopted him from the Cats Protection after seeing his little advert - it said he was grumpy, nervous and had stomach problems and tbh wasn't really selling him so I got all paranoid that no one would want him and I had to have him. 
Turns out, he just needed some fussing. A bit like myself. What.

Introducing cats
Luna, female, 3. 
She likes licking like a puppy, clawing my sleeping face for attention and throwing herself on her back when I get home from work.
She hates iPhone chargers. In fact, it is her life mission to destroy every last one of them. 
We got Luna from my uncle after his cat had kittens, which is kinda cute because they know how she's getting on. 
She's the first lady cat I've ever owned and I am besotted.

Introducing cats

Rory, female, around 3-ish, we think.
Rory is our little newbie and she is hilarious. She likes standing up tall & sticking her claws into my thigh when she thinks I've forgotten she's there. She also likes screaming when I open the fridge.
She doesn't like Cleo and Luna. 
When we were faced with the option of taking her in I almost said no but the other option was that she was going off to a relative's that doesn't have a very good track record with animals. 
You woulda said yes in that situation too, right?

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I want to do everything possible to make sure that this is Rory's final forever home. I think we are now the third or fourth home she's had and it would break my heart for her to go through the stress of moving again. 

What we've tried 

(from research & advice from our vet)

Scent swapping & mixing: using blankets/toys/carriers/swapping rooms. This is the first thing we did.
Meal time meetings: opposite sides of the door but gradually getting closer. Then through a glass door so they can see each other. Then in the same space but far away from each other. This all happened over the space of a few weeks however we're back at the start now as we had a little hissy fit.
Site swapping
Positive reinforcement (gonna have to remortgage to keep us in Dreamies)
Feliway sprays and diffusers
Play distraction

Our findings

Rory is terrified of Cleo however Cleo couldn't care less that she exists. Luna is terrified of Rory and can make all sorts of snorting noises I didn't know she was capable of. 

Rory is a total chaser, so as soon as one of the other two tries to walk away it turns into The Fast and The Furious. She also thinks nothing of jumping down the stairs through the banister to try land on top of Luna. She honestly looked like Batman. 

Luna and Rory both want to hang out with me at all times because I'm not like a regular mom, I'm a cool mom but this can't happen because I have to keep them apart just now. 

We've had Rory now for two months and keep having to take everything right back to the start but I'm not willing to give up without feeling like I've done my best for them. 

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Do you have any advice for me?
I've been told a couple of "old school" things to do such as "put them together and let them work it out" kinda thing but NO THANK YOU. Pretty much everything I've read and every video I've watched advises against that (thank you Jackson Galaxy for keeping me right). 


Friday, 12 August 2016

Doing Things For Me

So my head has been a little messy recently. "What's new?" I hear you say...let me tell you! I decided to put me first. Invest in some me-time...prioritise me-time, in fact. How am I supposed to be the best me if I don't invest any time in me?

Have I said "me" enough?

Here's what I've been doing for...myself recently.

putting yourself first

Getting outside

I am not outdoorsy at all. I am the jumpiest person alive and spend half my time outside darting back and forward because I think I have a bug on me (and usually I do, they are such creeps for me). However, it's worth it in all it's embarrassing entirety for the benefits of getting fresh air and a little exercise. 

I especially love walking by the water. Or by PokeStops. 

Katie Ryan is my spirit animal. 


I'm a sporadic reader. I tend to read non-stop during bath season (yoohoo autumn/winter, I see you!) and then have a big ol' break during the warmer months. Craving a distraction, I ordered myself a couple of books I'd had my eye on for a while: Calm: calm the mind. Change the world. & milk and honey by Rupi Kaur. By boyfriend also kindly ordered me the 100 Day Happiness Planner after I read this post by Kate La Vie so I'll be making time for this too.

Calm has opened my mind to...erm...mindfulness and is a book I'll reach back for often to help with my wellbeing and stress levels. 

milk and honey gave me the good feels about my body, and the women around me. 

I contacted a friend and made plans

I am the king of staying at home in my own little safe-bubble and phasing out having a social life, so I reached out to my oldest friend and made dinner plans. Then I kept them. Then I made further plans to have a day out at Edinburgh festival, and kept those plans too. 

Making the effort made me feel a whole lot better.

Thinking about my priorities

Being aware of what makes me feel rubbish and the impact or change I can make to it (where possible).

Now I'm not claiming to have worked wonders here. I'd love to be able to quit my job and travel the world to make me feel wonderful alas I have a mortgage to pay and responsibilities I can't just abandon. 

There are smaller things I have been able to do though that have had a positive impact. Saying no to situations that would make me uncomfortable, distancing myself from people who have a negative impact.

At one point I found myself caring too much about what people at work thought about me, so I had a word with myself. What impact do these people actually have on my life?! Sweet F.A. I get to come home to my home that I love & my family that love me. I work to live yo.

Listening to music

This is something that can boost my mood immediately so I've been trying to get into the habit of switching on when possible. This might sound weird but for a little while I'd given up on music, not because I'm getting pure old and dad-ish "oh they don't make it like they used to", but because my taste in music is varied and I couldn't pull a decent playlist together to save myself. 

Then I got a digital radio. Hello KISSTORY. Hello random stations I've never heard of that play Fall Out Boy and other such bands from my teenage years. It's amazing how quickly you can go from thinking about having to do the stinkin' dishes again to wearing heavy black eyeshadow and liner, GLORY boob tubes and parting your hair so far to the side that your face is weighed down and your neck hurts. Alright so that didn't happen. But it was a close call. 

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What do you do to give yourself a little reset and put yourself first?

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Thursday, 4 August 2016

TOTM - "Be Kinder to your Vagina"

My period has never been nice to me. PMS, severe cramps, heavy bleeding, being sick, passing out are just a few of the digs that ol mother nature has thrown at me. Since my early teens I have fought tirelessly to try and get my monthly's to a manageable place and eventually at the age of 21 I contacted a gynaecologist for help, rather than a health centre GP. Finally after all those years I was able to get some help and started to see a difference in how I was feeling on a monthly basis. 

Jump forward to now at the ripe old age of 27 (lol) I'm in a place where the majority of my symptoms have gone, and my cramps are manageable - however the one thing that I still have a bit of a struggle with is the heaviness. 

Just after my last period, TOTM kindly sent me a product to try out and for the first time ever I was actually looking forward to my next period. I know - when I mentioned to my sister and my bestie that I was looking forward to my period they had to throw me a few little security questions, like you get when you phone a call centre, to make sure it was really me they were speaking to. 

I opted to test out the Organic Cotton Night Pads with wings. 

time of the month products